Seriously, be grateful for your bills..

Let's be honest here....money does make the world go round...in one way or another. After trying to make a living on $10 an hour for six or seven months, it occurred to me that I was NOT destined to live this way. I was in an "uncomfortable" stage of my life.  I was just coming out of a 10 year relationship, living in a house that isn't a home, and realizing I miss my old life. It was hard...poor, poor me. I cried, I lost 45 lbs and went from a size 10 to a size 4 in two months. (it is called the divorce diet:You eat a McDonalds cheeseburger at noon only so you have energy to get through the day, and then some hot tea for supper, along with a bottle of wine to help you sleep. I don't recommend it, and it doesn't stay off. Man I wish I didn't get rid of all of those size 10's!!).
 Although I looked good in a little black dress, I hated the thought of even going anywhere. Living life with a giant hole in your heart is zero fun. I guess I should stop right here and thank those who put up with my pathetic butt during that time..so THANKS! Honestly, I just sucked at life. I checked out....but then.....I found an old book I bought called The Secret. I started reading it, and within a week, my mindset changed. I started living a life of gratitude. And instead of crying over what I lost...I gave thanks for what I had!! And you know what?? I got more. A lot more.

I started making cupcakes about two years ago. I have always loved to bake, and I thought this would be a good way to earn extra money. So, The Cupcake Fairy was born. I made a cute logo, told my friends and family to spread the word, and then I baked...and baked...and baked. I loved it. I would come home from work at least three nights a week and fill orders, or try new recipes. My kids hate cupcakes now, by the way. It not only gave me some extra cash,, it kind of gave me a purpose. And let me tell ya, boy did I need a purpose! I felt accomplished, and so so grateful that people enjoyed things that I made. I found myself, I started loving myself. And I got rid of those in my life who did not see my worth. I gave thanks for my life at least ten times a day. I would send my bills out to be paid and I would tell God thank you for giving me the ability to even have bills, and to pay them, even if I was broke afterwards.

I guess hard work does pay off, because after working my butt off at my real job, I was offered a promotion that could change my life...a job in sales with a great salary and benefits. I remember sitting at the front desk where I work and seeing the sales reps pull up in their company cars, and I would say, I can do that, I will do that. I put it out there....and the universe heard me!! BAM.

So, now I'm able to support my family, and make cupcakes! Woo Hoo!
If you know me, you know I am never satisfied with good enough. The cupcake business became a weekend thing after this new job kicked in. I no longer needed that extra money, so I decided to turn the business into a charity, and give all the money away. Hey, sometimes my donations to people are like $25...but at least it is something.

Here is my point in this rambling mess of words....It does not matter where you are in life, you can make it good. Be grateful, even if you feel like God robbed you of what you deserved, or wanted. Because you are never robbed of anything but your precious time that you could be spending doing good things and seeing the good that comes out of it, like PURPOSE. We all have one. Stop living your life half throttle. If you don't like something about your life, CHANGE it. Don't complain about it, don't blame others for it....do the work and change it yourself. Be positive, be grateful, and be nice!! Whatever it is you want, put it out there, and accept it when it tries to seep into your life in small ways you don't always notice...let it be!

Oh, and I will end with this....there are going to be people who see you living this way, and try to destroy it...don't let them....and that is a blog I will save for next time, titled "Soul Suckers". Man, I do not enjoy those types of people......

The link to The Secret Teachings website is listed below for those who want to learn more.

Gratefully yours,
Amber
http://store.thesecret.tv/content/The-Secret-Tools.htm#SECRETDAILYTEACHINGS

I have lots of ideas, so I am just going to blog about them ...because I can't seem to make any of them happen....

Ok, So I have never been into blogging, or writing. I have never taken classes on creative writing, or journalism, so I am not about to claim that I am a fantastic or even interesting blogger, writer, whatever. What I do have, is a very active imagination, and a lot of drive time for work.
I decided I should share all of my thoughts, ideas, opinions and even some advice on anything, but mostly on one topic....LIFE.
Let's face it, it really is a rough life, for all of us. Whether we have money, or are broke. Have great heath, or are sick. Great family, horrible family. Bad job, dream job. The list goes on. No matter our circumstances, each of us faces the same thing: Rough lives. Not all at the same time, and the same degree of difficulty, but we are all the same in that sense.
A few years ago, I was in that "rough" spot, only I didn't realize it. I was too busy running a business, being a mom, a partner, sister, friend, taxi driver, personal chef, therapist,etc... I was unaware of my own self. That is a dangerous spot to be in. You become reckless, faceless, and you take other people down with you. I was numb, mean, ungrateful, unforgiving, bitter, and most importantly....RECKLESS.
They say sometimes it takes losing all you have, to really see all you have. Yep, that is true. I lost it all...my mind included. But don't go feeling all sorry for me, I made many choices and contributed to me "losing" it all.
So, I invite you to take part in me sharing with you, my journey on coming out of the dark...because that journey led me to many things, and I can't wait to share with you what I have learned. So if you want to follow me, great, if not, ok, that is fine too. Just remember, life is tricky, and YOU are the only one who can change it, or not.

Thanks for reading!
Amber